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this love is not a choice
not like the first choice
and there is no going back
this love is more duty than wish
but rewarding still
this love is challenging, and because of that
a source of pride
not everyone could do what i do
what we do
every day for you
we may not be the best
but we try and
i'd like to think we succeed.
this love is new
i have trouble with that
i thought it would be newly old
immediately sealed
no questions asked
but for all that
it is love
unequivocal
not like.
you are mine and i
i am yours
we are yours
so it is written
so let it be done

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