Life Updates of a Larger Magnitude

But I feel out of control and I'm digging deep to just trust that things will work out.  Have faith.  It's super tough. (Written March 11, 2018 and not published until a year later) Here is the backstory: 2017 I spent building a marketing company.  It's called wholesaling, but it's essentially being the marketing and sales department for other rehabbers.  We broke even 9 months out of the year, and then the last quarter everything came together and we crushed it.  I was fired up for 2018 to start and had dreams of just crushing the crap out of it.  Monster goals.  $2.1M goals (which, btw, is 4x what we did last year, but seemed totally doable with the trajectory we were on) And then everything slowed down.  Still putting out the same marketing, hitting the channels that worked and adding in some new ones to try to get efficient.  Still getting the appointments.  Not getting the contracts.  (Our goal was 16, we got about 6 in ...

OMG PEOPLE.  I can't stop my work brain.  I did NOT get into this real estate field so that I could devote 90% of my mental energy to inanimate objects.  But the problem is it is all consuming to my brainwaves.  For shizzle it's impacted my family life (so annoying.  everything out of my mouth.)  I've started literally turning my phone off at 5pm to stop the interruptions, but how do I stop the thoughts?  And then the comments that pour forth because of those thoughts?  There has to be a secret...  ( I've googled it.   There are suggestions.  I've tried a lot of them...) So I need a hobby, but the problem is I want to spend time with my kids, and the things I want to hobby don't usually involve kids.  So I guess I need a hobby that I can do with my kids?  That they won't make terrible with whining?  This seems impossible.  I do like to read books.  I've been trying to do more of that.  BUT what I'd re...

Life is about moments.  A good life is about recognizing the good moments and when you’re in the bad ones, trusting that there will be more.  Tonight was a good moment. Husband, ski vacation, fire, Patriots Super Bowl win, amazing takeout Thai food.

Watching a little Gary Vee this morning and his rant on caring about what other people think.  (Everything he does is a rant.  But an awesome rant.  I As intended, it caused me to reflect on my social media persona and think about why I post.  Honestly, I post because it's a bit of a yearbook for me.  I love documenting the great stuff, because my brain forgets (in about 0.2 seconds), and I especially love when Facebook reminds me of my memories.  I'm not trying to convince the world that I have the perfect life - I DO have the perfect life.  It's full of family and friends and experiences.  Shelter and safety and amazing food.  In fact, sometimes I DON'T post because I don't want people to compare their lives and feel lacking.  I just want to remember this amazingness for the days when it's not amazing.  Gary Vee posits that we post fantastic stuff because we crave other peoples' validation on our daily lives.  But I know eve...

The thought topic for today is abundance.  How have I been shown abundance?  I'm so immersed in it that it's hard to pick out one or 2 ways.  My whole life is a life of abundance.  It sounds perhaps egotistical to say that, but that's not my intent.  I just mean to say that my level of hardship is nearly zero.  I have health, family (multiple generations), friends, food, money, security.  Where has God shown me abundance?  Everywhere.  In everything.  I could not ask for a life without any hardship, because without that I would not become forged into a better version of myself.  Even my trials lead me to abundance. 

This is both a reflection and a prayer.  As I started to pray this morning I was thinking, "What's on my mind today?  What do I need help with?"  And this quote popped into my mind immediately. "God comes to us disguised as our lives."  I've got a lot of God going on right now then, and mainly I need wisdom. I need wisdom to deal with the the trials surrounding aging loved ones, to say the right words, to savor the moments and plan as best we can for the future. I need wisdom with how to deal with a good person whose bad life choices are coming home to roost.  I want to be compassionate, to use this opportunity to effect real change in his life, but I don't want to be taken advantage of and honestly, I don't want to be sucked into any drama. I need courage to make the business changes needed to make my company rock solid and set up for the long haul.  And strength to carry them out.  That may be just continuing on the path we're on now,...