The Forever House
A few thoughts on buying the house you grew up in...
- It alternately feels *exactly* like home and like you're just visiting. Every space has a history overlaid to it that you can't unfeel.
- You constantly refer to it as somebody else's house.
- You worry that your family secretly feels like you did something bad by buying it.
- It makes your children's childhood ten times more real to you because instead of saying "when I was your age, we didn't..." and instead you say, "when I was your age, I tied 2 badminton rackets to my arms covered in plastic bags, and tried to fly from the top of the hill to the roof of the house." And you remember how much you believe you CAN at that age. Bittersweet.
- The thought of grand scale changes feels like you need some family committee approval.
- You definitely want to relive all your highschool troublemaking. (BONFIRE! WITH UPSIDE DOWN MARGARITAS!)
Every morning when B catches the bus is a totally surreal moment for me. That was me. Now it's not. Now I'm a MOM. Now I have responsibility. This is definitely enough to foster a mid-life crisis. :)
AHH! I love your list of emotions. :)
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