Meditate
The title of my last post was "Be HERE". That's because that is my new mantra. I've been following this Lenten guide from Bustedhalo.com, and one of the topics a few days back was meditation. They talk about having a sacred word to help get centered. I chose a phrase, and that phrase was (you guessed it) "Be HERE." That's because my mind is constantly running a bajillion miles a minute and I just can Not. Shut. Down. And so I want to work on being present where I am. Most often this happens at night, when I'm trying to go to sleep (like tonight.) And then that becomes a little chant to remind myself to STOP THINKING and be HERE. "Be here. In your nice bed. With your awesome husband. Be here. In your nice bed. With your awesome husband." (AKA, work/laundry/to do lists can wait until tomorrow). It doesn't always work, unfortunately, and then I'm stuck trying to blog out my thoughts so that I can rest. (Alternately, I do it to remind myself to savor my kiddos. "Be here. With these sweet gifts." It's a good way to refocus on the positive.)
On a side note (related to not sleeping and stress), something's gotta give in my life. I *feel* like I have everything I could ever want or need, but my body is telling me otherwise. And I'm pretty sure it's telling me to calm the f*** down. So in the month of April, no travel weekends. No triathlons (although I may still train for some, I will not sign up until the end of the month.) On the other hand, it could just be telling me that I'm trying to force my body into a sleep pattern that it does not naturally do (go to bed at 10:30, get up at 6:30). I definitely need 8 hours of sleep - you can't live like a crazy woman without it. But what happens now is I go to bed at 10:30, lay there for at least an hour (usually 2) getting more and more frustrated as the clock ticks on, and then I wake up disgruntled. I think my happy place is closer to midnight, sleep till 9. But there is no chance in Brynna's world that I am going to achieve that.
End digression. 11:06 pm. Maybe NOW I can go to sleep. Be here. In my nice bed...
On a side note (related to not sleeping and stress), something's gotta give in my life. I *feel* like I have everything I could ever want or need, but my body is telling me otherwise. And I'm pretty sure it's telling me to calm the f*** down. So in the month of April, no travel weekends. No triathlons (although I may still train for some, I will not sign up until the end of the month.) On the other hand, it could just be telling me that I'm trying to force my body into a sleep pattern that it does not naturally do (go to bed at 10:30, get up at 6:30). I definitely need 8 hours of sleep - you can't live like a crazy woman without it. But what happens now is I go to bed at 10:30, lay there for at least an hour (usually 2) getting more and more frustrated as the clock ticks on, and then I wake up disgruntled. I think my happy place is closer to midnight, sleep till 9. But there is no chance in Brynna's world that I am going to achieve that.
End digression. 11:06 pm. Maybe NOW I can go to sleep. Be here. In my nice bed...
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