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there is a song that speaks to me on such a visceral level that when i hear it, i can not help but stop whatever i'm doing and share a moment with it. it was a surprise, discovered during a concert of a band that i loved long ago, but didn't believe had put out any "good" new music. i was wrong, and this album has become a favorite for both me and my agnostic husband as well.
faith is such an evanescent thing. it's sort of like gravity. you can't actually see it, but you can see its effects through the actions of people. my faith is in a constant state of flux. i would say that i have a general baseline - "We believe in one God, the Father, the Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, of all that is, seen and unseen..." i believe that Jesus is a manifestation of God who gave us guidelines on how to live our lives righteously. and when we can't, gave us the ability to believe that we are not lost, merely human, and worthy of a second chance. on my down days, that is all i am capable of. it is then that i see all our faults and flaws, all our wars and murders and hatreds, and think that He is losing. on my up days, i can see God in every passing car, every crack on the sidewalk. beautiful if viewed in the right light... most days i am some where in between, a little more on the up side...
this song speaks to me about that whole struggle. that sometimes, this world is full of such negativity, so many evil acts, that it's not possible to believe in a higher purpose. and i am skeptical of people who blindly do. it talks about how human we all are, regardless of faith...
"Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be,
maybe I could get some sleep..."
it calls to something deeper inside me - the burning desire to believe anyway. to embrace all the madness of this world and trust that there is justice, that there is love, that there is a purpose...
"We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded
that the pain is worth the thunder..."
jars of clay: oh my god.
faith is such an evanescent thing. it's sort of like gravity. you can't actually see it, but you can see its effects through the actions of people. my faith is in a constant state of flux. i would say that i have a general baseline - "We believe in one God, the Father, the Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, of all that is, seen and unseen..." i believe that Jesus is a manifestation of God who gave us guidelines on how to live our lives righteously. and when we can't, gave us the ability to believe that we are not lost, merely human, and worthy of a second chance. on my down days, that is all i am capable of. it is then that i see all our faults and flaws, all our wars and murders and hatreds, and think that He is losing. on my up days, i can see God in every passing car, every crack on the sidewalk. beautiful if viewed in the right light... most days i am some where in between, a little more on the up side...
this song speaks to me about that whole struggle. that sometimes, this world is full of such negativity, so many evil acts, that it's not possible to believe in a higher purpose. and i am skeptical of people who blindly do. it talks about how human we all are, regardless of faith...
"Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be,
maybe I could get some sleep..."
it calls to something deeper inside me - the burning desire to believe anyway. to embrace all the madness of this world and trust that there is justice, that there is love, that there is a purpose...
"We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded
that the pain is worth the thunder..."
jars of clay: oh my god.
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