Where I stand…

I am tired, and beaten down, and ready to give up. I want to go home. I want to quit the fight because I feel l’ve already lost, but will carry on until the end because I feel I have to. I am upset because I feel that the fight was not fair, that the truth was not told, and that even though I’ve tried to do my best, my character has been called into question. I don’t know why I ever expected the fight to be fair. I know that in a few months, this will not matter. But it matters now and I am incredibly upset by it.
And my karma is all screwed up.

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